I need Work!

When I stopped to assess myself, I realized that all is not as rosy as I mindlessly thought. It takes objectivity to be able to "see" yourself clearly enough to take one's own assessment.

If I am not fully honest with myself, I cannot help myself to achieve integral wellness. So here is my assessment:

A-Physical Well-being-6.
I have to say that although I eat organic and am not overweight, I spend too much time on the computer between class work and my job. I barely have time to check emails most of the time, but it prevents me from getting enough exercise. As far as physical health, I have three herniated disks in my back, and although they no longer bother me too much, there are certain squatting positions I have to avoid. This lowers my score. Otherwise, my only vice is coffee, and I love it! No alcohol at all, because it makes me sick. So I do think that I am more than halfway to a ten, but need some work.

B-Spiritual-6. I have always been a spiritual being. I look outward to the universe, and inward to my consciousness most of the time. I feel so calm when either visualizing or actually seeing nature and how awestruck I get from its beauty. There is always room to improve this area. I want to take time to meditate more often and make sure that I set aside this time for myself every day.

C-Psychological-5. There is a tendency to depression since my husband passed away. I am alone and isolated most of the time, and know that it is important to get myself back out in the world. I am being forced to sell my house because I cannot afford to keep it. I love this house and do not want to sell it, but the economy and business is so slow, and the time I spend in school prevents me from spending much time developing new ideas and implementing them to keep my business going. I decided that I want to simplify my life and not have the load of responsibility that I have carried for so many years. This is where the spiritual work really needs to take place. I have found that relaxation exercises make me feel whole again. I love to use guided imagery to take myself away from the problems I deal with constantly at home. One could easily say that I am stressed out all the time, but I have a lot of techniques in place to deal with stress so that it does not make me ill.

I think that because I am a total optimist that I fare better than things sound. I have been told that I am like a rock, and I pray for strength all the time to see things through. I am a survivor!